Alter Girl of Doom

Tue, 28 Nov 2006 01:41:40 GMT

I finally got to see what is inside of me making me pee all the time!! It moves a lot but actually looks like a mini baby. I asked the technician if she would be able to check the gender and she got a pic of it and said it looks like a girl. She let me hear the heartbeat after trying to get the baby to settle down. It was 156 beats. It kept poking itself in the head and it kicked at the ultrasound tool thing. You could see all the fingers and toes. She gave me her calculation on how far I am and she put me at 15 weeks and 5 days. Which is strange because that would mean I got pregnant during my last period. But my fiancee and I are really happy!!

Sat, 14 Oct 2006 08:34:51 GMT

i have a quick question for the computer savvy out there. how do you get your browser page to fit the screen. i don't like scrolling from side to side to read stuff. any help would be appreciated

our puppies

Sat, 14 Oct 2006 02:13:37 GMT

figured i'd put them on here. here keeping the blonde one, and we're still looking for a home for the fluffball.

the weird thing is that this is all true

Fri, 11 Nov 2005 09:08:42 GMT

Your Birthdate: March 5

You have many talents, and you are great at sharing those talents with others.
Most people would be jealous of your clever intellect, but you're just too likeable to elicit jealousy.
Progressive and original, you're usually thinking up cutting edge ideas.
Quick witted and fast thinking, you have difficulty finding new challenges.

Your strength: Your superhuman brainpower

Your weakness: Your susceptibility to boredom

Your power color: Tangerine

Your power symbol: Ace

Your power month: May

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Thu, 10 Nov 2005 11:28:08 GMT

i was reading a friends journal on xanga and i found this quote about me, of all people:

I see....so you're attracted to people who get drunk often, curses like a sailor, smokes like a chimney, and has already lost her virginity? Go figure.....so am i, but the girl i love is still a virgin.....so, at least SOME of us have morals.
Posted 9/26/2005 at 11:39 AM by darkness_within666

my only question is, who is this person that seems to know me so well? if anyone knows who that is, they are on xanga. i'd feel open to suggestions on who they are

Thu, 10 Nov 2005 10:30:38 GMT

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:	5.7
Mind:	5.9
Body:	4.8
Spirit:	5.9
Friends/Family:	4.4
Love:	3.8
Finance:	6.2
Take the Rate My Life Quiz

Tue, 25 Oct 2005 08:16:26 GMT

i updated. work was fun tonite. i'm talking to buddy again. he's awesome

Thu, 20 Oct 2005 06:20:24 GMT

gah, select personnel needs to make up their damn minds. now they want me to come in tomorrow morning to get my badge and other stuff and they want me to start friday at pelco. i just spent the last couple of hours soldering. it was fun and i didn't burn myself once. but those fumes get to you. i feel like i'm high right now and i'm typing with my hand asleep. it is really interesting. i hope i get to school on time tomorrow so that i can ogle my teacher. it is fun, and he's very attractive

alrighty now

Wed, 19 Oct 2005 01:53:03 GMT

i got a job!! i start monday at pelco and friday at 3 i have orientation. that's cool. it's electronic assembly which means lots of soldering. it also means i work from 3:45pm to 12:15 am. that's gonna be a lot of time without sleep. i guess i better get to work on being used to not having any!!

players only love you when they're playing

Mon, 17 Oct 2005 03:27:36 GMT

i talked to a guy named buddy for almost 6 hours today. i've never met him either. he's really nice, and i'd like to meet him. i don't even mind that he's 30 and has 4 kids, including a baby. the only bad part is that he lives in merced. i don't even know where the fuck that is. other than that, i've done squat today. i filled in my dogs usual holes. it's like my weekend workout. eh, at least it builds up my muscles. i need to take a shower now though. and i need to finish watching the incredibles. i like that movie. that's all for now

some pics i took

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 06:02:47 GMT

these pics date from july 4th, 2005 until 2 weeks ago

i like taking pics

glycerine?

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 02:31:08 GMT

i have lots of energy and nothing to do with it. we emptied out our storage today, so now i have all my toys close at hand. i have too many toys. i found all my farm animals, so now i can play with them in the mud. i woke up at 4:20 this morning at my grandma's house. i wondered where littleone went because when i went to bed he was with me. then i came home and he was sleeping on my camo jacket on the floor. then i had a morning cig, and that was my last one in the pack :( dad gave me one at about 2 this afternoon, so maybe by tomorrow, i'll be done smoking. it helps that i've been feeling sick and everytime i smoke, i want to puke. i really hope that passes, i like smoking

i had my mid term in western civ. dane doesn't even want to talk to me anymore which is okay with me. bible flingers are a bit scary to talk to. everything they talk about has to do with god and it gets damn annoying. i'm still reading nightmares and dreamscapes. i love chattery teeth and now i want a pair.

i need to get back to playing neopets now. i've made 12,000np today and i think i just might be able to make a couple thousand more. i'm such a cheapo!!

Wed, 12 Oct 2005 02:31:32 GMT

what have i been up to lately? i talked to nemo for over an hour today. i really do miss him quite a lot. i learned that i fucked kenny up with my selfishness, so if i ever see him, i need to apologize soo much. and i don't apologize to people and actually mean it, which will make it harder. i've been talking to kyle a lot through myspace. i got laid over a week ago by 3 people. dirty llama. oh yeah, i broke up with my boyfriend last week. i told him i just didn't want one and he said okay but lately he's been all mopey, so i occupy myself elsewhere.

yesterday my dad gave me a really good idea. i told him this guy that sits next to me in guitar that is super good at playing, keeps smiling at me. i think he has a smiling problem. so my dad told me to sit there and watch him play until he notices, then lean over and tell him,"you're really good with your fingers" if he blushes, then i'll know where his mind is. probably the same place mine is most of the time.

i had a western civ test today and i think i did pretty good on it. i did the essay portion on muhammad and the founding of islam. i even learned the difference between shi'ites and sunnis muslims. that's all for now kids. bye

Fri, 07 Oct 2005 05:32:06 GMT

thanks will, this is funny

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Sun, 02 Oct 2005 21:35:29 GMT

i'm hungry for some homemade waffles. not sex, real waffles. on grandma's waffle iron. porn is fun to watch. red dragon makes cool background music when you're talking. i need to go home. i stayed the night at jenn's. it feels weird to smoke inside a house. it's something i don't want to get used to. but i can't smoke inside at home so i won't get used to it. i want a pet cow. they're fun to pet. they lick your hands when you pet them

Fri, 30 Sep 2005 02:47:52 GMT

and, i almost forgot. last night i dreamed that i died in a car accident. then i was slowly moving upward towards a heaven, and then i woke up. strange

moo?

Wed, 28 Sep 2005 02:50:22 GMT

yay!! ronnie unintentionally made my day. he came over and we were talking about kyle. i asked if he remembered me the next day. and ronnie said yes and that he wants me to go to whammo bass in coalinga in november. that'll be fun if i can go. i asked ronnie if he'd pick me up and he said sure, because my house is along the way.

i have now helped launch balloons as many times as trent. and ronnie, mike, and trent are all leaving me on friday and won't be back until next tuesday, the bastards. but ronnie said he'd get lots of pictures. i had an interesting talk with p-nut today. he said that when i break up with my boyfriend that he'd be my rebound. that's nice to know. i want sleep, but i need a shower. i've been shelling walnuts and my hands are stained. grandma said they'd be like that for a couple of weeks. the same thing happens every year.

i like pasta. it's yummy

Fri, 23 Sep 2005 05:41:42 GMT

today was interesting. i woke up with some mosquito bites. they were itching all day and when i got home, i fell asleep. my uncle woke me up, so i went to grandma's and put some benadryl on them. now i have 12. i had five this morning. on top of that, i don't feel good, and my uncle keeps telling me i have west nile. it doesn't help that we've found 3 dead birds on our property alone. maybe i'll feel better tomorrow.

mmm, i've got a chicken pot pie sitting right in front of me. i love these things. i was thinking today about something albert once told me. he said that i'm just like a man. and in some ways i guess he's right. i'm not a relationship person. i like the freedom to choose what i want to do and with whom. with a significant other, you feel guilty when you do that. i hate feeling guilty.

and another thing. what is with everybody wanting to be loved? a lot of my friends say they're in love with eachother. how can you even have time for love? you have no idea what you want to do with life. i've never been in love with anyone, and it's so much better this way. i know what i want to do with my life, and there is no room for love. it gets in the way of your dreams. now, i do believe in lust. there's nothing wrong with that. and if you can satisfy that lust, then there will be no problem, right?

i'm done for now. i hate love. love for a friend i have, not love for someone that i want to marry and spend the rest of my life with. sometimes i do think i want to die alone. after all, every living creature on earth dies alone. nite

a sad day in september

Thu, 22 Sep 2005 02:26:51 GMT

well, i admit, i do love thunderstorms. and what was weird was, after the storm moved over at about 9pm last night, the power went out. we called pg&e and they kept saying it'll be right on. when me and dad got up this morning it was still off. so we left, thinking it'd come on. it didn't come on until one fucking pm today. that was 16 hours that all the aquariums were turned off. and guess what fucking happened. most of the fish died in the saltwater aquariums. my fish are fine, the bastards just won't die. but our yellow tang, tango was her name, is dead. my green serpentine brittle star, whose legs are about 9 inches long each, is in his death throes. our 8 line wrasse died in the biggest tank, along with the fire hawk that was in that tank. the hawk had red eyes still. in the 35 gallon, the white eyed fire hawk was dead, along with an 8 year old blue tang, who just happened to look just like dori from finding nemo.

that really pisses me off. dad called pg&e and they said they'd send him a claim form. grr

on a lighter note, as of last night i am now officially going out with dane. he's a pretty awesome guy and i like him quite a lot.

now, i must go pull starfish out of the tank and freeze him. g'nite everybody

Tue, 20 Sep 2005 01:38:18 GMT

i have a job interview at select personnel tomorrow. that's interesting, considering i didn't do like grandma and lucy told me to and call them and check up on everything. i hope it goes well ~llama~

Fri, 16 Sep 2005 01:11:40 GMT

why do guys have to be so confusing?? i swear, some are worse than girls when it comes to making up their minds about what they want. i made out with jennifer yesterday, just because i hadn't been kissed in a while. at the end we were still kissing and i opened my eyes and everyone was watching. it was quite funny. jenn gave me a shirt that looks really slutty, so i'm gonna wear it tomorrow. i might even wear makeup. it depends on if i get unlazy in the morning. waffles?!

Thu, 01 Sep 2005 03:01:26 GMT

mmm, snickers are good when they're frozen. dammit, anthony called me 6 times monday night. you figure when the person doesn't pick up the first 3 times, then maybe they are busy. but he kept calling and i was sleeping. i like sleeping. it's good for me. so dammit, let me do it.

i learned a new piece on my guitar today so i'm making everybody that is here listen to it. yesterday ronnie came over and woke me up by throwing his glasses at my face, jumping on my bed, and punching the hell out of me. needless to say i woke up with a headache from hell that was easily cured by mr. strattera. me and ron dicked around for a bit once i got up. i learned i can't smoke too many menthols in one day. they make my throat hurt. i got another new friend named dane, and we had an intellectual conversation with our other friend jack. that just doesn't happen in the pit.

after my last class, i went back to the pit to just dick around, and i saw heather pouncey!! she had her baby and he's a little boy named joshua. she wanted to talk to a friend so i held him for a bit. he drooled all over my shirt and he kept putting his face in my tits. he's about 4 months, and he's a cutie. he has about as much hair as i had when i was three. i had nothing but peach fuzz. it was strange to see her, and that she remembered me. i also saw my friend crystal. haven't seen her in 3 years either. i saw my friend james, and we bummed around for a mite. in women's studies, i sat next to trent and nina and learned all about hermaphrodites. education, gotta love it.

i hung out with mark today and i missed my military science class. i really didn't want to walk over to health sciences building. my foot started hurting again today too. it feels like it's broken in half, but it's not. i just lit a nice little fire. i've been wanting to burn something all day, and i finally got the chance. thank goodness for junk mail. we have some nice brush piles that need to be burned, but we'll have to wait for a foggy day for those. i love the country for the fog that it gets. it hides the smoke from cops.

i want to kill stephen king right now. he killed off 2 of my favorite characters from the dark tower. it makes me sad. i'm gonna go and eat some spaghetti and drink some code red. so long, it's been good to know ya

OMFG!!! that's funny

Tue, 23 Aug 2005 21:51:54 GMT

Satan
You scored 62% Pride, 85% Envy, 70% Ambition, and 72% Deceitfulness!

You are Satan, the consummate villain, and the ascendant figure in the unholy trinity. Throughout history you have been called The Serpent, The Accuser, The Devil, Lucifer, The Prince of the Power of the Air, and The Dragon, among other things. Your “compatriots” in the unholy trinity, the Antichrist and the False Prophet, are merely pawns in your futile struggle with God. Though, they probably don’t know this. This is because you are a master of deception; indeed the Bible calls you “The Father of All Lies”. You are also very ambitious, and you strive to be in positions of the utmost authority. Unfortunately, it was impossible for you to obtain the highest title in heaven and this is part of the reason why you decided to leave. Of course, you couldn’t just leave by yourself, so you managed to use your deceptive abilities to get one third of the angels in heaven to join with you in revolt. God put down the rebellion and expelled you from heaven. To most people, it would seem foolish to start a war against God, but pride can sometimes cause people to do foolish things. In heaven, you were the most beautiful and powerful of all angels and you were well aware of this. Unfortunately, you let your pride consume you and your passions led you down the road to perdition. After you were expelled from heaven, you let another one of your attributes consume you—envy. You knew that you could never defeat God, but you could attempt to destroy humanity, his most beloved creation. Your goal is to bring as many people as possible to suffer in Hell with you. Fortunately for you, but unfortunately for the rest of us, you’ve been endowed with all of the attributes necessary (deceptiveness, confidence, ruthlessness, and ambition) to do a terribly good job at this.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 71% on Pride

You scored higher than 94% on Envy

You scored higher than 67% on Ambition

You scored higher than 89% on Deceitfulness

Link: The Which Biblical Villain Are You Test written by MetalliScats on Ok Cupid

it's a beautiful day in the neighborhood

Tue, 23 Aug 2005 21:46:50 GMT

i had another good day at school. didn't see marc today because i got there late, then was in class for about 3 hours with a 15 min break inbetween and then i went to taco bell with mike young. and then i went home. ronnie is supposed to come over today so he can get ready for school. we got 2 peppermint shrimp yesterday and last i saw they were doing fine. i can hear littleone barking in the laundry room and he won't shut the fork up. he hasn't shut up since i got home.

speaking of home. i was walking out to my house when suddenly i saw a 20ft water geyser. "where is that coming from?" i says to myself. i walk closer and discover dad left the 10 year old water hose out in the sun on full blast. it had a water nozzle on the end so it built up lots of pressure and popped a big bubble that was near the tip. it soaked my compost pile, my front yard dirt, and my porch. i wanted to go play in it but grandma said no.

ronnnie came over saturday and took me to see craig's jazz band perform. it was very awesome. i saw quite a few people i used to know. i saw nicolle greer and her bf joey. he was a really good friend of me and jared. saw jeanell, brittany, carly cummings(she still looks sick) and this guy named andrew. i also met craigs mom. she remembered me :( for those that don't know, i got in trouble in 7th grade for writing craig death threats. now don't get me wrong, he wrote them back and they were all in good fun. we knew they were a joke, it was the school that took them seriously. my dad just laughed it off. he played real good and preston came over and listened too. when it was over he left. me and ronnie and craig then drove over to that there steak house across from sierra vista mall. i think it's called early dawn. then we all just talked and were being perverted. it was fun. and i got to ride on the back of ron's bike from my house to the mall. i had my uncle's very nice and comfy helmet and ronnie got me some sunglasses. it was awesome.

now i am tired of writing and i want to go outside and have a cigarette. then i can come back in and play with my neopets. adios

my first week of college

Sat, 20 Aug 2005 01:14:08 GMT

all i can say so far is that i love it. i have 6 classes and they are all what i wanted. i have english 1a, beg gituar, womens studies, western civ, speech 8, and military science. from the minute i got there monday i started finding lots of people i haven't seen in years. i shall make a list:

1. jennifer kirkpatrick(from washington union)
2. Matt johnson (from clovis high)
3. kaitlin carver (from chs)
4. trent barnes (from chs)
5. Alex pippin (from chs)
6. jamie sagerquist (from chs)
7. todd avalar (from chs)
8. samantha somethingorother (from chs)
9. mark (jacquis x-boyfriend)
10. mike young (from chs)
11. raylene gowallis (from chs, didn't like her, she traced pics and said they were hers)
12. nina ovalli (known her since 5th grade)

and since then i've met new people and made friends with them, and they have mostly been guys which are just as perverted as me. they are:

adam (major tweaker, and he assalted me with salt)
james (he bummed a smoke and we sat there talking a long time)
ricardo (he looks like an indian and he's really nice)
jack (looked like a gay nazi, very attractive, now going out with jenn)
dwayne (looks like a mexican version of gilligan)
nidia (she's from sanger)
vitaliy ( and he's from italy and i think he's married but i haven't asked him yet)

if i meet anyone else i'll write about them. for military science we get to do labs after school. one is where we go rock climbing and another we get to practice swimming with a rubber torpedo. one that i like is we get to practice our shooting at a paintball range, yay!! we also get to learn to read satellite images and other military stuff. i put in an application at select services for pelco and my dads boss is supposed to call them and request me personally for an interview, so this weekend i get to learn how to solder and then the guy said that he'd hire me for the night shift. that makes me happy because i'll be earning 8.75 an hour. i got my financial aid finally and it ends up i'm gonna get $1,987 between this semester and next semester as long as i don't drop any classes.

do you know what i learned that i hate today? jenn thought it was cool to be ditching one of her classes so she could hang out with her bf. hello jenn, it's college, you're paying for your classes here. you can only miss so many days before you're dropped. plus, you have a baby, what about when she's sick and you have no days left that you can skip? then we'll see how cool you can be sweetie. you only get paid financial aid if you keep the classes that you signed up for. you drop it, then you end up owing money back.

and then, on wednesday i went to my new doctor, which was my old doctor before he moved. dr. matlock looked over my history and he noticed that it said i was bi-polar. so he had me do a questionnaire so i did. he looked it over and asked me about what side affects i had with my first anti-depressant zyprexa. i told him it made me sleep all the time and not want to do anything. he checked the questionnaire and told me i wasn't bi-polar but instead i have ADD just like my dad. he said it runs in families and that i had been misdiagnosed. so starting monday i'm being put on a pill called crestor which is pretty much crank in a pill and legalized. oh goody. i think that is all for now except that i'm gonna go have a smokie and then i'm going to bed. good night all and sorry i wrote so god-damned much